I think I've talked about my first kiss on here before. But I was 13 (or 14, but I'm pretty sure I was 13) and I was at this dance with my friend, Sarah. This dance was held friday nights at the recreation center in our town. There would be a DJ and a lot of people from our school. I saw this guy form across the floor, looking at me, and then he started coming towards me. He was definitely good looking and I was definitely getting nervous. He came up to me and told me I had a beautiful smile. We talked a little more and then we danced. To this song.
It's crazy how well I can remember it. Anyways..after dancing and talking a little more, we went and sat down on the bleachers. After talking about who knows what, he leaned in for a kiss! And it was a reaaallly good kiss, too.
I don't remember much after that. I think he got my number? We kissed a few more times and then I had to go.
The funny thing is he actually went to my school and became one of my brother's friends later on in high school.
Not gonna lie, we may have kissed a little more a few years later, too!
I still talk to him every once a blue moon, but I will never forget that kiss!
Now onto my first love.
His name was Jordan.
I was 14 and we met at the YMCA pool.
I went with my friend to go swimming, and I spotted this really hot guy with nice muscles and a nice back. I've always liked muscley backs (still do). Haha! Anyways, I would just stare at him diving off the diving board, and I think he may have noticed, and I think he came over and talked to me first. I honestly don't quite remember what we talked about but I telling him my name and that he said his sister's name was Courtney, too. I told him I was 15 (even though I was 14) because he was 17 and for some reason I didn't think he'd like a 14 year old.
So I remember he gave me his number before he left. I called him probably a couple weeks later and I remember him saying "what took so long?! and I was kind of like oops.
So basically after that, we talked a whole lot, and I had dinner with his family at his house (which was SO nerve-racking! I was only 14!) and we cuddled on his couch while we watched some show on TV that I was definitely not paying attention to. I told him that I was actually 14( he didn't care). We couldn't stop starting at each other and I was so head over heels. We FINALLY kissed that night, and it was so magical.
He asked me to be his girlfriend on AIM like 2 weeks later. Of course I said yes, but then he broke up with me for another girl like a month later. I. was. devastated.
For years. Honestly.
My old best friend (we're still friends, just not best friends) can tell you that I loved that guy for yearssss. She knows. I would always say that I was going to marry him. One day, my old best friend said that I needed to move on, because it just might not be meant to be. Like seriously, this was like 3 years ago.
So not too long ago.
That was the day that I realized that it's not going to happen. That we're not going to get back together and that I needed to stop living in the past and just move on.
And just months later, I met Tony. :)
Funny how things happen!
I would definitely say he was my first love.
But it was a different kind of love than what Tony and I have.
Normally, today would be day 21, but I'm supposed to post a picture of something that I wish I could forget and honestly, I cannot think of one thing that I wish I could forget?
So, let's skip to Day 22.
Day 22 - A picture of something I wish I were better at
I wish I could sing! I love to sing, I'm just terrible at it! Bleh!
Carrie Underwood ROCKS and I wouldn't mind singing like her. Also, I'll take her legs. Thanks.
Since I'm SO behind, I'm going to do Days 6, 7, 8, and 9 in this post! So bare with me!
Day 6 - 30 facts about myself
1. I'm actually shy until I get to know you. 2. Sugar is my favortie food, besides rice. I LOVE sweets. Like LOVE LOVE. If I could eat cookies and cakes and pies all day long, I would. Unfortunately, my hips wouldn't appreciate that. Ohh that'd be bad. 3. I get really nervous when someone else has my phone besides me. I don't know why. 4. Change can be very difficult for me. It just depends on the situation. 5. I worry a lot. 6. I'm OCD about weird things. Like, I have to pee RIGHT before I lay down to go to sleep. Even if I know I don't have to go. It's weird. 7. I have a new found love for running. One day I'd LOVE to complete a half marathon and eventually (wayyyy down the road) a marathon! 8. I'm more of a listener than a talker. 9. Being late makes me anxious. I hate it. Also, I feel REALLY REALLY bad I'm late to do anything with a friend. Like meet for lunch or something. I hate making people wait. It's rude. With that said, I'm usually always on time. I always give myself enough time to get ready and I usually give myself time for traffic, too. A lot of the time I'm really early to things. I get this from my dad. He is the exact same way. If I say to Tony, "let's leave at 6 to go to dinner" I expect to leave at 6. Not 6:05, but 6:00. He always makes fun of me for it. 10. I put on chapstick every night before I go to sleep. It's a habit. 11. I had my tongue pierced once. I got it when I was 17 (it was like a month before my 18th birthday and so my mom had to come with me) and took it out when I was 19. I just grew out of it. I also had my belly button pierced (got that when I was lik 14) , but I took out the ring because I was going to get a new one (and that one was really old and nasty) and I just forgot to go get a new one so it closed up. Sad day. 12. I wear glasses, but just around my family and Tony. I hate wearing my glasses out in public. 13. My favorite alcoholic drink is a strawberry daqiuri! 14. I've always wanted to have a baby boy first ('cause it's like a trend in our family. Three of my dad's brothers, and himself, had a boy first, then a girl like 2 years later. Except for his youngest brother who has two boys). 15. I'm half puertorican. My dad is puertorican, while my mom is a bunch of things - mainly Irish, though. 16. I love cookbooks! Especially dessert ones. I could sit at Barnes and Noble all day and look at those. 17. I have a huge amount of love for animals. I've had animals my entire life and I just adore them. I think I was a Veternarian in my past life. 18. Tony's family is like my 2nd family. I adore them. 19. I'm really good at reading people. I usually know when someone is lying and I'm good at figuring out mind games people play. 20. I've been told I'm funny. EVERYONE that has met me, has said I'm hilarious. I don't try to be. It's just who I am. But I love making people laugh. :) 21. I really badly want a new wardrobe. 22. I'm moving out this summer in an apartment with my best friend and I don't think I've ever been more excited for anything in my life. People say that living with your best friend could harm the relationship, but I honestly do not see that happening. I just can't. 23. I love sweets. Wait, did I mention that already? 24. I love my bed. Like, really love it. It's HUGE and SO comfy. I really hope I can bring it with me when I move out. But then I don't know what I'd sleep on when I come home to visit my mom. 25. My dad is my hero. He is so hardworking and caring. I'm such a daddy's girl and not ashamed to admit it. I watched American Idol tonight, just him and I (and Shaq his dog, of course) and it was fun to just relax with him and laugh and hang out. It's been a while where it's just been me and him hanging out. 26. I don't wash my face. I just don't. Once I start washing it, I break out like crazy and it SUCKS. If y'all know of a good face wash, let a girl know! 27. I cannot wait to be a momma. Like really. 28. Did I mention I love sweets? 29. I can't remember the last time I went to sleep before 12 AM. Is that bad? 30. I LOVE the beach. It's my favorite place to be.
Day 7 - My zodiac sign and if I think it fits my personality
My sign is Taurus. And yes, I think it fits my personality. You can read about it here. And all of those personality traits definitely fit me!
Day 8 - A moment I felt the most satisfied with my life.
I would say that right now I'm VERY satisfied with my life. I am closer to God, more than I've ever been. I have an amazing boyfriend. I'm closer with my family than I've ever been. I actually have found a true best friend that I can count on. Things are just fantastic!
Day 9 - How I hope my future will be like
I've mentioned this before, but all I care about is being happy. I just want to be happy in the future. Of course I want to be a mother and a wife, though. Those are my main goals. I just my future is happy and successful.
Gosh, I am getting so behind on this picture blog!
School has already taken over my life, and we're only into the 2nd week of the semester!
Here's Day 18
Day 19 - A picture of when I was little
So I have NO pictures of myself when I was little on this computer. Except this one because I've used it on this blog before. And yes, it's a picture of a picture. I think I was like 3 or 4 here.
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere I'd love to travel
That's Hawaii!! My first choice would be Australia, but then it's here! Ohhh it's beautiful!!
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on my life recently
Mary!
My best friend, Mary.
I wouldn't say she's made a huge impact on my life recently, though.
More like 2 1/2 years ago when we met.
I've never had that many girl friends. I've never had ones that were truly honest, loyal, and trustworthy. My ex best friend (we're still friends but definitely not as close as we used to be) was really my first best friend. We met in middle school and were best friends throughout high school and then it kinda faded away, sadly. We still keep in touch and we still see each other once in a while.
But Mary is different. I've never really trusted girls. They can be so backstabbing and dishonest. When I met Mary I knew that she was different from any other friend I've had. She has definitely made a huge impact on my life because, before, I could never trust any girls. I knew that once I met someone, I was just waiting for them to backstab me. Mary is truly a best friend and someone that I just know, without a doubt, will be in my life forever. She will most certainly be in my future wedding, and will most definitely be there when I'm having my future babies. I also hope that our children will grow up to be best friends, too. I love this girl! :)
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I definitely believe in God. Without a doubt I know that there is a such thing as God. I live for Him and I know that He will always be there for me. Even when things are going good, I know that He is doing it for a reason and I usually do not worry as much as I used to because I now know that everything is in His hands.
Day 5 - A time I thought about ending my own life
I'm going to honestly say I thought about it. I was about 14 years old and I was very immature. I met a guy who I was head over heels for and he broke my heart. We were only dating for like 3 weeks when he left me for another girl. I honestly felt like there was nothing to live for. I was so crazy about this guy. I was crying in my bathroom one night over him, and I honestly thought that there is no point in living. I thought that if I took a lot of tylenol that maybe I could die. What a dark place that was. After I had those thoughts, I just said, no. My family needs me here. If I died, they would be devestated. I wasn't going to do that to them. Thankfully, I came out of it. I only thought those thoughts once, and then I was over it. Although, I was very upset for the next few months. It was hard on me. I don't know why I was so torn up over this guy. JUST a guy. Makes me crazy thinking about how a person can make someone think about ending their own life.
My dad inspires me. He inspires me to become a better person. He is always encouraging me to go after what I want and he is always inspiring me to do well in school. He's the best dad in the world, and I'm totally a daddy's girl, always will be.
I'm gettin' a little behind with this picture blog! Whoops!
Here are days 14 & 15.
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without
Well, there are a lot of people I couldn't imagine my life without. My family is a given, of course. There's no way I could imagine a life without them. And of course my best girl friend, Mary. For this post, though, I'm going to say Tony. Imagine trying to live without your best friend? Impossible. He's my rock and I know that I could live without him, but it would just be REALLY hard and I do not even want to imagine it.
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.
Yes, that's a kangaroo. And no, I don't want to be a kangaroo, or ride a kangaroo before I die. Kangaroos live in Australia! I want to visit Australia before I die! It's such a beautiful country, and I've only see pictures and videos of it! I'm sure those do not do it justice! I want to snorkel at the Great Barrier Reef! I WILL visit Australia before I die!
In my family, there really hasn't been anyone that abused drugs or alcohol. Thank God. Although nobody in my family has ever been a drug addict or alcoholic, my brother's best friend was.
His name is Alec. First things first - Alec was the nicest guy I've ever met. Every time he came to my house to see my brother, he was always smiling. He was a part of our family. My brother knew him ever since he was in middle school (my brother is now 23). They were best friends, along with another guy. They were the three muskateers. Always together. Alec abused prescription pills and he had to go to rehab. Unfortunately, he came out of rehab after about a year, and he started up again. On January 11, 2009 in the morning, he had passed away. He overdosed on pills (and I think alcohol). I'm not completely sure, but I know he had taken prescription pills. I know it was the worst day of my brother's life and it's STILL hard to believe that he's gone - over 2 years later. I miss seeing his smile all the time, and that laugh. Wow. That laugh was so contagious. I remember the last time I saw him. He was over at my dad's house with my brother and another friend and our family, and we were playing Wii. He was just so happy.
Abusing prescription pills is such a big deal. I want people to become more aware of how huge it is. Don't take it lightly.
Honestly, I just want to be happy. That's really all that matters. I just want happiness and to be with the people I love.
In 10 years I'll be almost 32 years old. That's just crazy to think about. I hope to have my BSN (bachelor of science in nursing) and maybe even my MSN (master of science in nursing). I hope to be married with at least two kids, maybe three, running around. I hope to be a SAHM (stay-at-home mom). Honestly, though, I just want happiness and success.
So, even though I'm going to be really busy with school and the 30 Day Picture Blog for the next 30 days, I decided why not throw something else to make my life ever crazier?
I'm going to be participating in this fun 30 Day Challenge!
Well, I think by now y'all know that I have a boyfriend. We have been together for almost two years (it will be two years on Valentines Day). He is truly my best friend and the one person I can act my complete self around. He seriously lights up my life and after two years, he still gives me butterflies. He is the most selfless, caring person you could ever meet and he seriously makes my life better. We have such similar personalities, yet we are very different. If we were to be put on a reality tv show people would seriously think we were the weirdest people ever. We are always joking around and I love him with all my heart.
Tomorrow is the first day of school and I'm NOT looking forward to it!
Here's Day 10 of the 30 Day Picture Blog! :)
Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most ridiculous things with.
This is my best friend, Mary, who I talk about all the time. We have done some pretty ridiculous things together and I can't wait to do more! :) I love this girl!
Today Tony and I are going to run some errands and then tonight we're going to stay in and watch the Falcons game! Whoo hoo!
Here are days 7 & 8 from the 30 Day Picture Blog!
Day 7 - A picture of your most treasured item
Honestly, I can't think of what my most treasured item is! I'm having a brain fart here!
Day 8 - A picture that makes you laugh
This is my 5 year old cousin (he was 4 at the time) just acting goofy in July of '09. It's more cute than it is funny, but whenver I see it I laugh. :)
Soo yesterday I forgot to do Day 4 of the 30 Day Picture Blog.
Whoops!
I was a little too busy cuddling up with Tony on the couch because he had yet another day off from work because of the snow! And I had no school so we decided to take advantage of it!
Day 4 - A picture of your night.
Well, I didn't take a picture of my night last night, so I'm gonna skip this one.
Day 5 - A picture of your favorite memory.
I don't have one favorite memory, but this is one of 'em! In this picture I'm headed to Myrtle Beach, SC with Tony in August of '09! :) We had such a fun time there!
Day 6 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.
Jessica Alba! But really, I'd like to trade places with any celebrity for a day!
So now onto the other part of my title - weight loss.
I started back on the weight loss train on Monday. THIS time it's for good. Y'all are probably like yeah riiight, but seriously.
This time, I actually have bathing suit season coming up and I cannot look like the way I do.
I want to lose 20 lbs and then that's IT! I hope. Ha!
So far this week I have done great. I've been eating low carb, lots of protein and veggies.
I have been doing circuit training and running on the treadmill.
I want to lose at least 2 lbs a week.
I know it may be a little hard, but if I can average 2 lbs a week then that will be good.
Hopefully I'll be at my goal by mid-March.
I'm going to weigh in every Sunday and I'll let y'all know how it goes!!
I have been a little busy for the past two days enjoying doing nothing with Tony and just relaxing around his apartment because we have had 2 snow days!
School was supposed to start back up yesterday, but it has been closed because of the 5+ inches of snow and it won't be opened up until Thursday! :)
I only have Tuesday and Wednesday classes this semester, so since the college is closed today and tomorrow, I don't have any classes this week!
Here's to 1 extra week of winter break!
Tony had work off yesterday and today, so that was nice, but tomorrow he will probably have to go back. If he does have to go back, it will be later on in the morning.
We've had fun throwing snowballs at each other, too. :)
This is in Tony's neighborhood. Isn't it gorg?
So now onto Day 2 and 3 of the 30 Day Picture Blog! :)
Day 2 - A picture of you and the person you have been close with for awhile.
This is me and one of my best friends, Mary. We took a class together back when I started college in Aug of '08 and we've been close ever since. She truly is a great friend. She has the biggest heart and she is so sweet. I know that girls can be so bitchy and dramatic, but not Mary. She is so drama free and down to earth and I'm so lucky to have her in my life.
Day 3 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show
Easy. One Tree Hill is hands down my favorite show. They start back up on the 25th and I CANNOT wait! It's on my calendar. :)
It will force me to post every day for 30 days! ;)
Plus, it just looks fun!
Day 01 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts.
Day 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been close with for awhile.
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.
Day 04 - A picture of your night.
Day 05 - A picture of your favorite memory.
Day 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day.
Day 07 - A picture of your most treasured item.
Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh.
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.
Day 10 - A picture of the person you do the most ridiculous things with.
Day 11 - A picture of something you hate.
Day 12 - A picture of something you love.
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist.
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.
Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little.
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel.
Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget.
Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book.
Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change.
Day 25 - A picture of your day.
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member.
Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of.
Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile.
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss.
Today is going to be Day 1 - A picture of yourself with 15 facts.
1. I floss my teeth everyday. I have to, or else I feel so dirty and nasty with all that food between my teeth.
2. I could eat rice everyday of my life if I could. But I don't think my hips would like that too much. Also, I think that's why I love sushi so much. It has rice in it!
3. Country music is my favorite type of music. Hands down. It's basically all I listen to, with a little rap thrown in here and there. Who woulda thunk it?
4. I love football and I actually know a lot about it and I know what is happening during games. GO DAWGS! :) And Falcons!
5. I LOVE breakfast foods but I never get to really eat the good ones since they are so bad for you. Pancakes, sausage, french toast. Yuum!
6. I've lived with my parents for (22 years in May) and I'm finally moving out in August because I'm transferring to a 4 year university (I'm at a 2 year right now). I'm SO excited beyond words, but I do know once it comes I will be a little sad. I'm moving in with one of my best friends, Mary, and 2 other girls. I'm so excited for this because I know it's going to be one of the best times in my life. :)
7. I start my weight loss journey tomorrow, January 10, to lose 15-20 lbs. This time, I'm fo real.
8. I cannot wait to be a momma. Ever since I was a little girl I've always wanted to be one and it really is what I've always wanted to be when "I grow up".
9. I'm in school to become a nurse - an RN. I want to help people and I want to make a difference in people's lives. I want to do Labor and Delivery nursing.
10. I love clothes. A lot. It sucks though, because I'm broke and I cannot fulfill this want like I would want to!
11. I want to be a stay-at-home momma.
12. I think it's SO important that your significant other is also your best friend. Tony is my best friend and I think that it really helps our relationship.
13. Fall is my favorite season. Something about the crispness in the air and that the holidays are around the corner. :)
14. I could drink Starbucks everyday if I could.
15. I'm a really goofy person. I get it from my brother. He is really goofy and it rubbed off on me.
I'm just trying to enjoy my Christmas break before I have to go back to school!
Christmas was amazing, spent with my family.
I'm not going to do a whole re-cap of 2010, but let's just say it was a great year!
And now it's 2011.
I can't believe it!
SO much is going to be happening this year.
I already know it's going to be a busy (and amazing) year!
This month ( in like a week) I start my journey to lose more weight! And yes, this time I'm actually going to stick with it. I want to lose about 15 lbs.
February is Tony and my 2 year anniversary! I can't believe it!! :) Also in Feb., is Tony's ADORABLE niece's 2nd birthday that we will hopefully be attending if we can make it out to Myrtle Beach!
There is nothing too exciting planned for March.. but in April my step sister turns 18!
I swear she is still 10 to me.
In May, i turn 22. Really?! And the Spring Semester is OVA!
Also in May, my brother, dad, and I travel to Kansas City to attend my step-sisters high school graduation!!
In June my dad turns 53!
If you didn't already know, each summer my family has a "summer trip" and so this year we will either be going to Florida or a CRUISE! So that will probably be in July most likely!
Can't WAIT!
Then, August will be a HUGE month!
I will be moving out of mom's house, and to Kennesaw, GA which is 45 min away! I will be attending Kennesaw State University starting in August and couldn't be more excited.
I will be living in an apartment on campus with one of my best friends, Mary, and maybe a couple other girls and I'm seriously STOKED.
Also in August, my step-mom and step-bro will be moving down here!!!!
This is EXCITING y'all!
They have lived in Kansas City while my dad has lived down here (because they were waiting for my step-sis to graduate high school to move down to be with my dad).
How exciting is this? Very!
In September my brother turns 24! (weird)
In November my mom turns 51 and it's THANKSGIVING month!
Also in November I will have known Tony for 3 years! Wow!
December is CHRISTMAS and this means family time. :)
Well, I hope y'all have a great New Years Day!
I'm going to be watching bowl games with Tony all day! :)
I'm a 25 year old college student getting a degree in Psychology. I have an amazing boyfriend that I've been with for 5 1/2 years. He's my best friend and I cannot wait to see what the future holds for us. I love the Lord, I enjoy baking/cooking, I'm never late, I love the ocean, chocolate can always cheer me up, and I will try almost anything once. I just want a place to record my thoughts and have a place for all my memories!
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